It seems as though the length of time between my posts increases every time.
JANUARY?? Really, Meagan?! How embarrassing.
The fact remains, I haven't been able to find time for writing at all in these past five months. In fact....I've barely been able to keep up with my job and day-to-day responsibilities, as of late. But, I've been powering through, giving it all I've got, and taking it one day at a time. Alas, despite being on Synthroid, my health hasn't significantly improved. And my job has gotten ten million times more stressful...I'm just spread so thin.
I've found myself wound SO tight, lately. In a bad, bad way. I've been under a lot of stress, and I've struggled with managing my emotions at work a few times over the past few months. Which....is unacceptable. So, to put it in layman's terms, I've cried at work a few times over the past few months, but not in front of anyone super big. The point is...my emotions have control over me, i do not have power over my emotions, at the moment. I have to examine my life, and make changes that will help me get to where i need to be. I need to write. I need to release. I need to have outlets for my words, thoughts and feelings. I need to change my mindset, and manifest good health for myself. I need to DO something. MAKE a change, take action and produce results, already! I've been stagnant. And that's not like me. And it's making me crazy.
On top of my stupid thyroid, which is also making me crazy. So, to recap...I had an endo appointment on April 11th, and that's when he finally prescribed me the Synthroid. Diagnosis was subclinical hypothyroidism on February 25th, but they wanted to test my levels one more time (took test on 4/8/13) and it was at my 4/11 appt that he finally gave me the medicine. I started it on 4/16/13. Since I started it, I feel better energy-wise, and I'm not always cold and lethargic like i was previously. But, i still have palpitations, and I'm still having a lot of difficulty losing weight.So, i feel better overall...but would say I'm only at 60/65% at this point. I have a followup on Thursday, the 6th, and I'm going to ask about natural meds vs. synthetics, and I'm doing my research, educating my self as best I know how.
But that, coupled with my super stressful job, now. And how they always seem to want more...more calls, more dials, more talk time....more, more MORE. I'ts hard. I'm spending 5 and 6 straight hours on the phone, a day, with students. I have 2 different cohorts of students, i have to juggle both and maintain each population. It's a lot to balance. I don't have time for twitter anymore either. I used to do it during the day, while at work....but now, there's absolutely no time.
So, this is an interesting time for me right now. It's a beginning and an ending for me. An ending in the sense that I'm stepping away from twitter. A beginning in the sense that i'm starting to really focus inward and do good things for myself. Tonight, i started my "me-time" in the zen room. I set a timer, and just spent a few (30-ish) minutes in there breathing, stretching and journaling. Thinking, expressing, and purging. I felt palpably better after my time in there. And i really feel like if i make that a daily thing, i will be SO much calmer and more able to deal with life and it's stressors.
So....that's my plan. More writing, expressing, stretching, yoga, meditation, manifesting....less bitching and moaning and helplessly. No pity parties. And damn sure no more stagnation. It's full speed ahead for me from this point out.
JANUARY?? Really, Meagan?! How embarrassing.
The fact remains, I haven't been able to find time for writing at all in these past five months. In fact....I've barely been able to keep up with my job and day-to-day responsibilities, as of late. But, I've been powering through, giving it all I've got, and taking it one day at a time. Alas, despite being on Synthroid, my health hasn't significantly improved. And my job has gotten ten million times more stressful...I'm just spread so thin.
I've found myself wound SO tight, lately. In a bad, bad way. I've been under a lot of stress, and I've struggled with managing my emotions at work a few times over the past few months. Which....is unacceptable. So, to put it in layman's terms, I've cried at work a few times over the past few months, but not in front of anyone super big. The point is...my emotions have control over me, i do not have power over my emotions, at the moment. I have to examine my life, and make changes that will help me get to where i need to be. I need to write. I need to release. I need to have outlets for my words, thoughts and feelings. I need to change my mindset, and manifest good health for myself. I need to DO something. MAKE a change, take action and produce results, already! I've been stagnant. And that's not like me. And it's making me crazy.
On top of my stupid thyroid, which is also making me crazy. So, to recap...I had an endo appointment on April 11th, and that's when he finally prescribed me the Synthroid. Diagnosis was subclinical hypothyroidism on February 25th, but they wanted to test my levels one more time (took test on 4/8/13) and it was at my 4/11 appt that he finally gave me the medicine. I started it on 4/16/13. Since I started it, I feel better energy-wise, and I'm not always cold and lethargic like i was previously. But, i still have palpitations, and I'm still having a lot of difficulty losing weight.So, i feel better overall...but would say I'm only at 60/65% at this point. I have a followup on Thursday, the 6th, and I'm going to ask about natural meds vs. synthetics, and I'm doing my research, educating my self as best I know how.
But that, coupled with my super stressful job, now. And how they always seem to want more...more calls, more dials, more talk time....more, more MORE. I'ts hard. I'm spending 5 and 6 straight hours on the phone, a day, with students. I have 2 different cohorts of students, i have to juggle both and maintain each population. It's a lot to balance. I don't have time for twitter anymore either. I used to do it during the day, while at work....but now, there's absolutely no time.
So, this is an interesting time for me right now. It's a beginning and an ending for me. An ending in the sense that I'm stepping away from twitter. A beginning in the sense that i'm starting to really focus inward and do good things for myself. Tonight, i started my "me-time" in the zen room. I set a timer, and just spent a few (30-ish) minutes in there breathing, stretching and journaling. Thinking, expressing, and purging. I felt palpably better after my time in there. And i really feel like if i make that a daily thing, i will be SO much calmer and more able to deal with life and it's stressors.
So....that's my plan. More writing, expressing, stretching, yoga, meditation, manifesting....less bitching and moaning and helplessly. No pity parties. And damn sure no more stagnation. It's full speed ahead for me from this point out.
