perspective

i uncovered a little equation today, and over the past few days...it goes a lil something like this...

time + space --> perspective --> UNDERSTANDING.
Decoded - {Time & space lead to #perspective, which in turn leads to #understanding.}

And its SO true. I didn't even realize it, until it was forced upon me {the time, space & distance forced, i mean} and after i was made to withstand a holding period (to quell the emotions) i saw it all so clearly. Emotions really do muddle up your view!

So, for now....for today, im grateful for the perspective. Because now i have a better understanding of, said {unmentioned} issue. But, regardless...it all makes so much more sense now.

blind-sided...

Such a precarious predicament. To have been living a double life, dwelling daily in a deep-seated secret....feeling trapped because i couldn't be true to myself, and express my feelings and emotions. Having to forgo my usual outlet of blogging, writing, social networking.....all because i was trapped in the dimensions of the parallel reality that was consuming my mind, my daily life.

Happier than ever (i thought). Finally living in a real adult relationship, all to have it stolen away, no explanation, in the BLINK of an eye. And now i'm left reeling....sitting here, engulfed in an identity crisis, trying to make sense of what i thought i had SUCH a firm grasp on. It's baffling, really.

Absolutely baffling and all-encompassing, and overwhelming, and.....just, too much to wrap my mind around. Reaching for explanations and understanding....only to find.....empty handfuls of air...

Empty nothingness, that makes no sense. Such a facade, a mirage. And i am left so utterly empty.