Something is in the air today.
Something inherent... implied. Something underlyingly aggravating, and grating to one's nerves.
Everyone is feeling it.
Literally, every single person i encountered today was having an emotionally trying day. Is it some sort of end-of-the-year closure, cluster-fuck energy-boom madness? Is it an imagined, yet universally felt last grasp to make sense of, and tie up loose ends to, all the complex situation that presented themselves over the course of 2011?
Is it literally a planetary pull, and/or some sort of sign from the Universe?
We may never know, BUT...i plan to ride it out.... and finish up 2011 with a bang. Tying up loose ends, getting organized...purging myself of thee bullshit.
Feels liberating. Invigorating. I'm starting 2012 on the right foot.
Footloose and fancy-free <3
Friday, December 30, 2011
Wednesday, December 7, 2011
el siete de diciembre
So much time lapses...where does it all go? Days meld into weeks, which become months and im so far out of touch with the outlet that soothes and heals me. I dont know why i dont blog more regularly...it's a goal of mine to start doing it more often.
But here i am....weeks removed from having last wrote on here, and i've run the full gamut of emotions and feelings in record time. I think that's why i havent written more. Because my head has been spinning, and i've been trying to make sense of everything and everyone i was encountering. Analyzing and thinking and questioning. Rationalizing and speculating....projecting and reviewing. Those are a lot of verbs, if you ask me! Tiring work...emotionally exhausting.
And to sit in retrospect and review the last few months...hell, the majority of this YEAR, and all the monumental life changes i endured...it's been a crazy ride, to say the least.
BUT, i must say im grateful for the direction in which my life is now headed. And although it was a painful journey...i definitely learned from it and am a better person because of it. One day ill recount the story, in all its glory. But, probably not for a while...i need to still make sense of it all first. Beautiful chaos...that is thee story of my life.
“You must have chaos within you to give birth to a dancing star.” - Friedrich Nietzsche <3
But here i am....weeks removed from having last wrote on here, and i've run the full gamut of emotions and feelings in record time. I think that's why i havent written more. Because my head has been spinning, and i've been trying to make sense of everything and everyone i was encountering. Analyzing and thinking and questioning. Rationalizing and speculating....projecting and reviewing. Those are a lot of verbs, if you ask me! Tiring work...emotionally exhausting.
And to sit in retrospect and review the last few months...hell, the majority of this YEAR, and all the monumental life changes i endured...it's been a crazy ride, to say the least.
BUT, i must say im grateful for the direction in which my life is now headed. And although it was a painful journey...i definitely learned from it and am a better person because of it. One day ill recount the story, in all its glory. But, probably not for a while...i need to still make sense of it all first. Beautiful chaos...that is thee story of my life.
“You must have chaos within you to give birth to a dancing star.” - Friedrich Nietzsche <3
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