Take Care

The last few weeks have been especially trying for me...especially emotionally EXHAUSTING. I've lacked the closure necessary to allow one to move on, and, in that....remained in open-wound mode.

I'm usually very resilient, but...for some odd reason, that
knee-jerk, kick-back reaction hasn't....REACTED into place...
I haven't been able to bounce back...

So...3 weeks it has been...this friday makes a solid four. And, i feel that
I finally have a coping mechanism...a tool that will allow me to make sense of
the whirlwind of emotions i'm swirling in.

And that is Take Care. 21 tracks of amazing Drake goodness, as i had waited for the So Far Gone mixtape in Feb 2009, and Thank Me Late in June 2010...i waited anxiously for Take Care, in its Nov. 2011 release date. I specifically did not listen to the album when it leaked the weekend prior to official release.

I wanted to hear it in all if its uncut and uncensored glory. I didn't want to ruin the pureness of the moment, of that first listen i get...to all his songs
the introduction i get to all his lyrics...the web of words i'm drawn into
so eloquently
the beats that course throughout my body.

His music heals me..his words soothe me...his lyrics intrigue me
I retreat into a world that is Drake
where its nothing but...
his voice in my earphones
his singing to my ears
his words to my heart...

"Get it understood yeah, it's all good yeah
Girl I know it's real cause I've been around it
You only want whats real you just never found it
Don't give them no more chances, Oh girl they had there turn
Everything for a reason, There's things you had to learn from them
But when I get you to myself
You know what's going down, what's going down" - Drizzy- Practice, Take Care

full moon, 11.11.11

Transparent gray clouds soar quickly over the bright, full moon.
the leaves on nearby trees, dance in the breeze....
rustling...the wind whips...
kisses my cheeks
...envelopes exposed fingertips making them numb, unfamiliar.

i feel the power of the moonlight, shining on me tonight
shining bright....
I feel the pure energy, the manifestation of millions
as i look up at the moon, and breathe deep in though my nose
the moon shines brighter, as if to answer
my call....It answers in lighted illumination,
PERFECTLY timed...again and again when i
concentrate and envision.

The wind grows louder...blows harder....
the Universe speaks
and i earnestly listen.
This is my time, as a LIGHTworker...
as an empath, who can help people.
This is why i soak up the moons energy, and i recharge my own
inner battery with natural MOONLIGHT.

I feel....at one.
Universal oneness....WHOLEness with oneself.
Universal synchronicity, divine intervention
The Universe possesses powers beyond our control...
beyond our mere scope of understanding. Complex depth.

The moon is powerful tonight. You should take 5 minutes
to bask in its light. Breathe deeply and envision the light
course through your mind, body, soul...pure white light.

Come back to center....start over again.
Today is 11.11.11....and the best is about to begin! :)

hello blogger my old friend....

Oh how i've missed thee. Ive been neglecting you....or rather, neglecting ME. Neglecting my chosen outlet, my coping mechanism...my CREATIVITY. Neglecting my writing, my journaling and my blogging {which, may to you sound the same, but each serves it own purpose in the tapestry that is my life}

ive been stifling my voice....merely trying to process my whirlwind thoughts...

Trying to make sense....

...Of what my life was....to the changes i made...to the life i more-recently had....to the reality check i just got. Pulling apart the endlesslyMOVING thought patterns and intertwinedINQUIRIES, the jumbled up nonsense...the circus that was going on in my head. So many questions, so few answers.

Im finally back on solid ground though...i've found my bearings. After having adjusted to the drastic life changes which happened in rapid succession.

The noise in my head is starting to die down....the dust, beginning to settle. The picture is coming into focus...and my perspective is, accurately adjusted :) I see where i've gone wrong....i know what it is i have to learn - the lesson i have to successfully complete.

I am aware.

And now...today...now i embark.

No more holding it in....no more drowning in thoughts - only free love and expression abounds now...understanding ALLOWS now....SO many things.

So....many things <3