Such a precarious predicament. To have been living a double life, dwelling daily in a deep-seated secret....feeling trapped because i couldn't be true to myself, and express my feelings and emotions. Having to forgo my usual outlet of blogging, writing, social networking.....all because i was trapped in the dimensions of the parallel reality that was consuming my mind, my daily life.
Happier than ever (i thought). Finally living in a real adult relationship, all to have it stolen away, no explanation, in the BLINK of an eye. And now i'm left reeling....sitting here, engulfed in an identity crisis, trying to make sense of what i thought i had SUCH a firm grasp on. It's baffling, really.
Absolutely baffling and all-encompassing, and overwhelming, and.....just, too much to wrap my mind around. Reaching for explanations and understanding....only to find.....empty handfuls of air...
Empty nothingness, that makes no sense. Such a facade, a mirage. And i am left so utterly empty.
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