So much time lapses...where does it all go? Days meld into weeks, which become months and im so far out of touch with the outlet that soothes and heals me. I dont know why i dont blog more regularly...it's a goal of mine to start doing it more often.
But here i am....weeks removed from having last wrote on here, and i've run the full gamut of emotions and feelings in record time. I think that's why i havent written more. Because my head has been spinning, and i've been trying to make sense of everything and everyone i was encountering. Analyzing and thinking and questioning. Rationalizing and speculating....projecting and reviewing. Those are a lot of verbs, if you ask me! Tiring work...emotionally exhausting.
And to sit in retrospect and review the last few months...hell, the majority of this YEAR, and all the monumental life changes i endured...it's been a crazy ride, to say the least.
BUT, i must say im grateful for the direction in which my life is now headed. And although it was a painful journey...i definitely learned from it and am a better person because of it. One day ill recount the story, in all its glory. But, probably not for a while...i need to still make sense of it all first. Beautiful chaos...that is thee story of my life.
“You must have chaos within you to give birth to a dancing star.” - Friedrich Nietzsche <3
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