FULL CIRCLE

Today, May 26th, 2011 has been a good day....a real good day. It started off a little rough, but redeemed itself wholeheartedly by the end <3

I got the chance to come full circle today....i made amends, and cleansed my karma. It felt{/feels} so great! So light and airy...im def breathing easier. Okay....so here's the back-story....

The other day {out of nowhere} i felt pulled to......hmm, 'right a wrong', let's say. So, i scrounged up my big balls, took the 1st step....and reached out to a very big part of my past, a person integral in the sculpting of me {the REAL me}. I knew i had been vengeful, and purposefully spiteful in recent months, and i played power games simply for the ihavepoweroveryou aspect, which is NEVER acceptable. And i still had something of hers too, a Mac computer.....so i knew i had to give it back and clear the air. So, i texted her....and to my surprise, it went better than i thought it would've. Anyways, that's the gist of it.

So today she came over for dinner, and our other 2 friends came too. We went outside to talk alone....and I looked her right in the face, straight in her eyes and explained that, yes...i know i was purposefully hurtful towards her. And, yes.....i played power games simply cause i COULD, cause i had that power...and that i was sorry.

and, you know.....i think that was a necessary step on the path to my future. I feel a weight lifted...and we both expressed that we're 2 totally diff people now than we were years ago...when we'd go round and round, on and off, up and down, all crazy-like! I believe we're both over it {all the hurt from the past} and that we'll both be able to be mature adults and build a solid friendship now. I hope that's how it works out, cause i had kinda missed her freakin funny ass....and she WAS an integral part of making me who i am today. She deserves to see the real, cool, down-to-earth me...the ME of present day....since she put up with the looney-tune-me for so many years. So....def feeling real good right about now. :) At peace, and optimistic for the rest of the opportunities/lessons that are sure to come my way <3