Wildly undulating....

Wildly undulating
fluid as my sexuality....

ebb and flow...
my emotions
take hold of me.


making a mess
of that which i had just
made sense of.


pulling to the surface
past pains, regrets...
lessons learned 
things i had wanted
to forget.


muddled up in uncertainty now
it was all just so clear and calm...
i yearn for that peacefulness
yet again.


In time, after my lessons
have been learned....
my scars, & strength earned....
only then will it all
make real sense again.